Too Much.

Hey guys, I know its been a while, but I’m back! And this time you can believe me! A lot has happened while I’ve been gone. Too much to explain. More of it bad than good. In the end though, I’m the idiot who screwed it all up. I’ve damaged, and possibly even destroyed relationships with friends. I’ve also damaged relationships with family, and I feel a lapse in my relationship with GOD. It’s all to much to explain, so I’ll just get to the song. The song this week is called “Cinder and Smoke” I hope you like it.

Losing myself just to find a place in your mind,
Forced to be free, I know I would die, just to know if I was ever really alive.
Searching for the end, just so I can start,
Learning to build, so I can tear it apart.

I taste cinder and smoke while I drown in the waves
Confused by the way water’s mixing with flames.

You fell asleep in June and woke up in December,
When you saw your reflection in drowning embers.
Forget about me to make room to remember
seeing yourself through drowning embers.

Fresh air burns your throat, your eyes and skin.
You’re a product of a world fuled by bullets, war, and sin.
Vaccinated by death, shot into a vein
A broken down life, Hell is jealous of the rain.

So much for the light show,
So much for a fire fight.
I dont believe in afterglows
But I can hear them late at night.

I can’t make you believe in things
I don’t believe myself.
If we’d never heard how great heaven is,
We’d all be fine with Hell.

I taste cinder and smoke while I drown in the waves
Confused by the way water’s mixing with flames.                                

You fell asleep in June and woke up in December,
When you saw your reflection in drowning embers.
Forget about me to make room to remember
seeing yourself through drowning embers.

I’m Not Dead…Yet.

It’s been three weeks since I’ve posted! THREE WEEKS!!!! How could you guys let me forget? I count on you to remind me to post, and you’ve failed me! As punishment, I shan’t be posting a song this week.

  Actually, I’ve just run out of songs that I think are good enough to post…I’m almost done with a new one though! So next week, if everything works out, you will be reading a fresh song never before read! If it’s not done, I’ll just post one that I don’t like, because I hate making you wait…..

Yesterday…no wait…LAST Friday…No……The Firday BEFORE last Friday I went to Madz’s house, and had an amazing time! We played Rockband, and watched August Rush, which is an awesome movie. We also played two games  (Although I can’t remember what they were called… Can you help me out Madz?) with her amazing parents! Many inside jokes were formed, and overall it was an incredible day! 

Also, we got grades this week, and my Algebra grade went up 10%!!!!  My parents are EXTREMELY strict about grades, so that made me very happy!

I guess all I’ve got to say this week. Make sure you check back next weekend, because I will be posting a song!

“Overflow”

*NUDE!!!*

(Inside joke from lunch today)

Why did I begin my post with an inside joke?  Just to make you feel left out! MUAHAHAA! Anyhoo, boring week, overall. Played A TON of guitar, watched the Super Bowl, along with 97% of the population. (I disliked both of the teams, because I’m a Chiefs fan. Yeah I know they’re awful, but ever since they fired Herm Edwards as coach they’ve been steadily improving, and Cassel had an amazing season, especially in that game against the Steelers. Also I would like to point out that that game resulted in a quality win over a division rival into the offseason. Although, the roster will be turned over. And now I’m ranting about sports, so I’ll get to the point of the parenthesis, *Who were you rooting for in the SuperBowl?*)

                                          Now that that’s out of the way, The *~*~*~*ORIGINAL SONG OF THE WEEK*~*~*~* *Enter with pyrotechnics and amazing lighting sequences*

“Overflow”

 

Your dead but the world keeps spinning,
Your looking down on the world you’ve left.
The lord forgives us for all of our sinning,
But we can’t seem to forgive ourselves.

I feel great but there’s tears in my eyes.
And there’s rain falling down from a cloudless sky.
We’re crumbling away like castles of sand.
But my god is my crutch and he helps me to stand.

I’m dying inside but i try not to show it,
I’m falling apart but i don’t let them know it.

I’ve got my eyes wide open but i cant see,
The anger that’s inside of me.
It spills out as it overflows,
It’s just another overflow.

I can hear the echoes fading,
And the light is getting dim,
And the world just keeps on coming,
It knocks me down again.

And when all the laughter’s finished,
And the beauty is all gone,
I will not be forgotten,
And i will not be alone.

I’ve got my Mind wide open but i cant understand,
The love of our savior who holds us in his hands.
It spills out as it overflows, it spills out as it overflows.
And it spills out as it overflows, its endless as it overflows.

I can’t hold on any longer,
I’m losing grip while gaining faith.
I think of him and how he’s stronger,
than anger, sorrow, and all our hate.

Eternity is a powerful thing,
When your speniding it with our king.
Our lord and savior jesus christ,
The reason i can sleep at night.

I’ve got my mouth wide open but i can’t sing,
a song that would explain everything.
It all spills out and overflows,
eventually we all overflow

hmmm….I like this one for some reason, I really like this one. Tell me What you think!!

~~~J.D~~~               

“Messages”

Hello peeps! And welcome back to Glass Mannequin, the blog about my music, and my life. As you can probably tell by the title, the song this week is “Messages” but we”ll get into that later. First, I feel the need to make you read about my weekend!
Friday
We got out of school due to the 5 inches of snow outside…*YUS*!! But the school didnt bother calling me until AFTER I had woken up at 5:30, hit the snooze button, woken up again at 5:37, hit the snooze button again, slept through the alarm until 6:09 gotten ready for school, and began opening the front door to leave!! So, I was pretty annoyed, but still relieved to not have to go to school. Later that day, Me and my friends decided to do stupid stunts and stuff on a snowboard (Bonus Points for alliteration!) First, we tied a rope to the back of my friend Nick’s, brother’s truck and got up to speeds of about 45-60 miles per hour! As you may have guessed, multiple injuries followed. Then, seeing that we hadnt broken anything, we decided to snowboard off of Nick’s shed. His shed is about 8 feet tall, and 25 feet long. We all took turns doing stunts, until I very severely twisted my ankle. Now you’d think we would stop now, right? wrong. We just started the whole thing over agian, but with a sled this time to avoid hurting my ankle even more. Then I went to my friend Markus’ house for weekly band practice, we got a lot done, and we’re actually starting to make sounds that resemble music. I ended up spending the night at Markus’, and we played a 36 song setlist on rockband 2!

Saturday
I stayed at Markus’ until about 2:00, then went home for cleaning day.*Ugh*. Saturday was a lazy day for me, mostly spent playing guitar.

Sunday
Church was beastly, I’m fired up for God! WOOT! I got a haircut, and it’s pretty short…It’s not terrible, its just…bad. I played guitar a lot, and played Mario Kart Wii with the family, it was a pretty beast day!

And Finally, “Messages”

You’ve got to hold on tight to your beliefs,
and try not to fall apart.
don’t let other people try to bring you down.
say what’s on your mind while you feel what’s in your heart

You stand stronger the more that you kneel,
just like the more love you give, the more love you feel.
life goes on like the turn of the wheel.
Through my god, my wounds are all healed.

And I can hear the messages of tearstained faces, forsaken places.
And I can try to feel like I belong.
But the confusion and frustration it is piling up
And I cant last forever I don’t know how long till I die.

I don’t know why
a king would go through that for me.
I don’t know why it had to be
I don’t feel like I’m worth it,
don’t feel like I deserve it.

I don’t know why
he felt the need to die for me
on the cross he died for me
I don’t feel like im worth it.
don’t feel like I deserve it.

And I can hear the messages of tearstained faces, forsaken places.
And I can try to feel like I belong.
But the confusion and frustration it is piling up
And I cant last forever I don’t know how long till I die.

ignorant people who dont believe
who waste the gift of eternity
who think he’s just a giant lie
but i see signs of hope in their eyes.

And I can hear the messages of tearstained faces, forsaken places.
And I can try to feel like I belong.
But the confusion and frustration it is piling up
And I cant last forever I don’t know how long till I die.

Well, that’s it for this week, I’ll post agian next week! I hope you enjoy the song!

~~~J.D.~~~

Introductions…

Hello everyone, I’m J.D. I see you’ve stumbled upon my blog “Glass Mannequin”. I guess first I should tell you about myself. I’m 14, and I’m in Jr. High. I’ve played guitar for 8 years, drums for about 2 years, harmonica for about a year, piano for 2 years, and I’m picking up the banjo! I’m loving life, loving GOD, and loving music. Music. Thats what this blog is about. More specifically, MY music. As I said I write songs and I wanted a place to post them besides facebook. I’ll try to post at least one song a week, and I’ll fill up the rest of the time talking about myself, and life. The title of my Blog, “Glass Mannequin” is the title of a song of mine. I guess it makes sense to go ahead and post the song, so here it is.

I believe in brighter days despite the missing sun.
Despite the wars, the heartless deaths, the hunger, and the guns.
Despite the absence of warmth as the cold wind cries.
Because there’s just something in the color of the sky, tonight.

Something that makes me want to believe
That there’s hope for you and there’s hope for me.
I can see emotions flooding through your eyes,
And there’ something in the color of the sky tonight.

CHORUS
I feel like I’m stuck in a single pose.
And everyone can see right inside of me.
I feel its too late and the doors are all closed.
And I feel like I’m trapped inside a glass mannequin.
I cannot move in the transparent state im in.
I feel im stuck inside a glass mannequin.

BRIDGE
And I’ll wipe away the tears..
And I’ll try to hide my fears
Cause I’m to tired to Cry
And I’m so tired of lies.

CHORUS

That’s it. I dont think its that great, but other people seem to like it.  There will be many more to come, as I’ve got a fairly good sized stockpile going, and I’m constantly writing more. I’ll try to entertain you, and get to know you. This is my first blog, and I doubt it will be very interesting, but hopefully you like it.

I guess that’s it for today, I’ll see you next week. 

                                                                                        ~~~J.D~~~